Happy dream

Had a great dream that my daughter and I won a $850 shopping spree at sears. The people we won it from were trying to make us buy second hand stuff but I said sorry my heart is telling me to buy new stuff so my daughter and I went shopping. Later our driver (who happened to be and overweight fella working for our elderly lady neighbor as an ins agent) drove us to a friends house. The house happened to be my husbAnd's high school friends house and our friend happened to be his daughter Lyla. Lyla was really sad because her parents divorced and me and my sis had always been kind to her so she enjoyed our company. Lylas house where she lived with her dad was known to be haunted so our driver contiplated whether he wanted to wait for us to be done or not. He eventually did decide to wait.  We went inside and saw our friend Lyla. Her hair was long and dark shr was so happy to see us smiling from ear to ear. It was then that my dream changed and my sis had begun to be taken over by evil. Like a Warrior with clear instructions I knew immediatly what to do and how to help her. I started to uncurl het hands and pray. Uncurling her hands were more like prying them open again but i was not afraid. I defeated evil and got my sis back.

I'm a celebrity?

OK crazy dream! I was Hilary Duff in my dream, but the teenage version. I was dating that guy from One Direction with the curly hair (Harry?). In my dream we were at a gas station and my dad, who happens to be my real life husband was pumping gas. A huge old school white limo pulls up and tells me to get inside. It was my boyfriend Harry's limo. I ask my dad if I can go, he says yes and I get to spend time with my boyfriend Harry. In this dream, I understood that Harry and I had strange schedules that did not always allow us to spend time together and it was hard to keep the relationship alive, but I understood that we were trying to keep it alive. We talked about how in the beginning of our relationship (which was only a month ago) we had fun talking, but then he had to go away again for work. We talked about how we missed eachother. We sat next to each other, his arm around me and we sat close together just adoring eachother again. Harry had a friend in the limo. The annoying third wheel that was trying to occupy himself with anything possible. When I woke up from this dream, I wondered if this was a dream about my daughter and her future boyfriend. I had a strong feeling that I (Hilary Duff) was representing my daughter in that dream. I also didn't feel like I was "in love" with Harry, just enjoying getting to know my new boyfriend and enjoying spending time together. I heard on the radio that when you have a dream that you're a celebrity, that usually means that your status is your group of friends is going up or getting higher. So does this mean that's what could happen to my daughter? Could this be a sneak peak of what is ahead for her? I don't want her to have a boyfriend, but I know that's out of my control.

Messages from God

I was reading my last post about my dream. It seems that lately I've been looking at dreams differently. God shows me things through my dreams. The dream before this one was about me, my husband and daughter driving to a luxury cabin. I knew immediately that this was a message from God. He's telling me to keep doing what I'm doing and keep believing, dreaming and living my dream because this is where we will end up if I'm willing to put in the work. I finally told my daughter about my dreams today, not just the dreams you have when you fall asleep but the dreams I have for myself and my life. I told her that no matter what we all must go after our dreams and think BIG! I told her that I don't want to hear anymore negativity coming out of her and I want her to be more positive and live her dreams like I am right now. I told my daughter about the dream I had at the luxury cabin and wow I didn't think it was going to bring me to TEARS!!!  Then I apologized to her because the other day I had told her to give up on her dream of wanting a brother or sister. The reason why I apologized was because this not only was her dream, but it was my dream at one point and it IS a dream of my husbands to have another baby. My daughter's turning 15 this year... The age difference would be major but if this is what my daughter and my husband want, then of course I would want this dream to come true. God did tell me through my daughters dream and my brother in laws dream that one day we were going to have another little girl. My daughter saw her in a dream, she was holding her and crying then when she woke up she cried even more because it was just a dream. My brother in law said that he saw this little baby's face and it was my baby, her face was so clear and vivid. He was holding her and looking at her. My brother in law told me about this dream the next day. I took both these dreams as signs from God that one day it is going to happen for us, we ARE going to have another baby ONE DAY. I asked God to forgive me for saying this to my daughter and I asked God if her dream was going to come true. Before I could even finish thinking this, I heard God say... "Your daughter's dream will come true." I DO believe this!!!

I learned to be content with my life and what I have, I want no more and no less but now I learned that it's OK to want more and you don't have to think low of yourself and expect the worst. You should always expect the best because your father is capable of parting the seas so just think about what he would do for you! I always expect the best now because my Father is someone that wants me to have everything. I believe him and I'm here to receive my blessings! One really awesome thing now is that I'm finally paying attention to those hidden messages from God. You know how Joel Osteen says he gets an impression down in his gut about what God is trying to tell him, I am FINALLY starting to understand how to listen to God and hear those messages too! This is an awesome breakthrough for me! God tells me so many wonderful things. His love is sooooooooooooo good that I just want to cry about it! He is soooooooo humble and wants me to have such a great life and that's why I am soooooooooo thankful. When I want to think about God's love for me I think about the story that Joel Osteen told. He was on the beach in India looking at the sunset an it was so beautiful. He said something along the lines of "Wow God, look at this beautiful creation of yours! This is the greatest creation ever!" And God said, "No Joel, you are my greatest creation ever." I will never forget this story, when I think about God saying that about me.... little old me... I just TEAR UP!!!  A love so humble, genuine and pure that someone so imperfect like me could be the greatest creation ever? Ahhh I love my Father! I LOVE YOU!!!  ALL GLORY TO GOD!!!

Strange Dream

I had the strangest dream. I was an underwater diver and we were doing a documentary or class on life in the sea. Although this was the underwater world, in my dream I understood that the fish represented a church congregation. My dive instructor was showing me where all the groups of fish were. The squid hang out in one area, the Tuna fish in another area and the other fish in this area, then there was one area where it was free of judgment and that was where anyone could hang out no matter what kind of fish you were. Just then a large shark had noticed me and started to stalk me. We got out of the water but the shark followed me to the dock where I stood making eye contact with the shark. The shark went wild trying to get to me, ramming it's head on the dock we stood on. We ran to the grass and the shark followed. Finally the shark decided that he was going to eat me regardless of where I was. His intention was to jump out of the water onto land and swallow me, but this is where I blacked out. My dive instructor pulled out a device and said the good thing about being lost in the ocean is that there's new technology so he was able to see every bone in the water and they would immediately know where I was since my bones would be the only human ones showing on their X-ray like screen. Then I remember coming up to shore for air, the atmosphere was different. I was in Africa and I was next to a Hippo. That's when I woke up.

Precious Testimonies

I love knowing that I can look back and have all these testimonies to keep me positive and keep me motivated. I still can't believe I lived in fear for so long. Now that I have overcome my fears, nothing can stop me! No mountain is high enough for me! I am a warrior and I live my life like one. I put 110% into EVERYTHING I do including my marriage, mothering my child and my relationships with people. I want to live a life like King David and not be afraid of anything! Lately, I have been more vocal on Facebook and other social media about my relationship with my husband. I hope that people can understand it's OK to love your spouse and be happy and it's OK to appreciate them even if they're not in a position to be appreciated at the moment or even if it seems like you're bragging. So what if people think you're bragging, as long as you're being honest and sincere, it doesn't matter what anyone thinks because we are not living to please other people, we are living to please only God. God has been so good to me and I want to keep moving towards him so that's why I'm choosing to spread as much love towards others as possible. When I was 9 years old the Lord put a dream in my heart telling me that one day I would feed homeless people and starving children. I remembered this dream my whole life wondering when this would come true. Only recently did I finally decide to volunteer at feedmystarvingchildren.org. I may not be the hand that holds the spoon going into that child's mouth but it's my hands that are packaging that food for these children and Y ES ONE DAY I WILL be that hand holding the spoon that goes into that child's mouth. IT WILL HAPPEN. I want to see the faces of these beautiful children and watch them laugh and play. I want these children to know, see and feel what it is like to have someone that genuinely loves you and wants you to have a wonderful life. I want to speak faith and favor directly to these children and let them know they are going to be something GREAT! One day it is going to happen! Lord help me make this happen please.

My heavenly father has shown me so many things, I realize now that I have to listen and pay attention to these messages from him or else I might miss opportunities and blessings that were meant for me. I watched Oprah one day. It was Memorial Day and they were talking about veterans that were suicidal. My heart broke for these veterans who were homeless and suicidal, I could not believe that this was their reality. I wept as I watched this episode and I wondered what can I do to help? I wanted to volunteer at a suicide help organization but my head started to fill with all these excuses and reasons why it would not work out for me. I look back and think... wow why did I let those negative thoughts take over me? I am so good at talking to people, especially with people who have this problem because I too used to be someone who thought about suicide. I never did act upon it, but yes thoughts did fill my head about this before. I am such a strong person now that I would never allow this kind of darkness back into my life and I want to teach people how to be this way too, but why... why did I not take that first step back then? Now years have gone by... But no... I am never too old or too late. As long as I am still breathing someone can and will benefit from me!

There was one year that I was really struggling. I was stupid and told my daughter, "We're poor now so don't expect nice things anymore OK? If there's anything you want, we'll go to Savers or Goodwill to buy it." I look back at this mistake and think how dumb was I to speak negatively to my daughter like this? What kind of impact did this have on my daughter? Did she think we'd have to go without food some days? This was a big regret of mine. I should not have said these things to her. I should not have been such a negative influence on her. I honestly make no excuses for this poor behavior of mine, I take this as a lesson learned. I WILL NEVER speak negatively like this to my child AGAIN! I thought that since my parents hid so much from me and my siblings when I was a kid, I thought I was doing the "right" thing to tell my daughter the "truth" about our finances and our life because that's what I would have wanted my parents to do for me when I was a kid. BOY WAS I WRONG! What a big lesson this was for me. That year we could not afford school supplies for my daughter, I cried about being a bad parent and not being able to afford simple things like this for my child. I asked God to help me. The next day a stranger brought a backpack full of school supplies for my daughter and put that on our front porch. I could not believe my eyes! I was so thankful. Yes this was the hand of God! This was only one of many prayers that the Lord answered for me. I asked God to help me get out of this mess. Help me financially by providing me not just a job, but I wanted a very specific job. Even though I wasn't qualified and did not have the required education for this job, the Lord made sure that I got in. That day of my interview, I interviewed with the owner of the company who jumped through hoops and bypassed the requirements to make sure I got hired. It wasn't until 3 years later that I actually acknowledged that the Lord had answered this prayer for me. Once I realized this, I worked even harder at my job, I started to open up to people and started helping them more and sharing information with them about the job so they could learn and grow in their position. Then an opportunity at work came along, but not to me, to another department. It looked so good and I wanted it sooooooo bad so I prayed about it. And once again the Lord bumped me up to first place and made it happen for me again. He put me first in line when I should not have been. Living in the favor of God is so good!!!  

God didn't stop there, he keeps guiding me and directing me to new things, opening my eyes so I can see his favor and I can receive his blessings. I am so thankful. Today he is telling me to live my dreams, keep creating things and being passionate about the gifts he's blessed me with. He floods my mind with ideas so much that sometimes I can't even keep track of them. He's showing me little "sneak peaks" of my beautiful future through amazing dreams that I have been having. All glory be to theGod on high, Who hath our race befriended! To us no harm shall now come night, The strife at last is ended.

Overcoming anxiety and depression without help

It's funny how back in my dark days when I lived in fear and worry I used to have bad dreams, I used to think of unimaginable horror and death. That's why I call it my dark days. I suffered from anxiety and depression living every day hopeless and afraid. I look back now and think wow... I was afraid of NOTHING. And that fear held me back so strongly. I wanted to change so bad but I didn't know how. I finally got fed up with living in fear and started to change the way I was thinking. I started to tell myself that everything I feared was actually something I LOVED. I changed the word fear to the word love and started telling myself that I LOVED everything I feared. This was my sword to fight off any negative thoughts and it worked for me. I was so happy with the results that I started challenging myself even more every day. I started to talk to people more. At work I would say good morning or hello to people I didn't know walking by. I would make conversation in the elevator with strangers, I would laugh and talk to strangers like as if I had no fear at all. This is how I learned to "fix" myself and to overcome anxiety and depression. Through the years I got better and better, I started to laugh again, I gained confidence and I wasn't hiding it! I worked like I had the best job in the world and I was constantly putting in 110% even when other people were complaining. I loved my husband so much and always was honest and respectful with him even when he was rude and unforgiving. I lived my life like a Queen, doing what I wanted to do. I learned to tune some things in and some things out. I only listened to people that were being honest with me, people that were expecting me to figure out the true meaning behind their stories and lies, I tuned out and only made myself understand the words they spoke instead of the hidden message they tried to shamefully pass to me. Since the day I decided to fight my fears on my own life has been good. SOOOOO GOOD!!!  Everything at work was going better than ever! I remembered one day that I had prayed for this specific job. I prayed that the Lord would help me obtain this specific career even though I did not have the education or experience. I interviewed with the owner of the company and she jumped through hoops just to get me hired. This is how I know it was the hand of God helping me obtain exactly what I asked for. I saw an opportunity come to another department at work and I asked God again to help this opportunity come my way. The Lord did it again and not only gave me this new opportunity, he put me first in line when I shouldn't of been. Once again I was living in the favor of God. How can I just ignore this? Every dream and wish I've asked for has come true, and all this is because I had faith, I believed and I WANTED these dreams to come true. They weren't just imaginary things I thought of in my head, they were a sneak peak at what lies ahead for me. I don't have bad dreams anymore, only good dreams now and every dream I've had recently seems to be a sneak peak of my future. The other day I dreamed that my husband, daughter and I were driving up to a luxury cabin we frequently rented, the staff there were delighted to serve us and knew us by name. I have never seen a place like this in real life, but in my dream, it was a familiar place. I believe this is a sneak peak at what lies ahead for me and my family. I never ignore thoughts or dreams anymore, I love receiving these messages from the Lord, they push me to work harder and keep moving forward in life to help others, dream big and fulfill my destiny! I can't wait to see what else is next for me!

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